every time i go out with someone really attractive and successful (okay, on the rare occasions this happens)
i get so self-conscious and concerned that too weird and i’m not attractive, successful, charming, etc enough
i really need to stop. it’s ruining my game.
but i just had a really nice first date. i said to liz “i think i want to start dating men again” and she laughed at me. and then i laughed at myself, because i’m the biggest queer i know.
but i went on a date with an attractive, successful man and i had a good time, so.
at the very least if things go well i’ll have someone to focus my energy on for a while, and that’ll be good, i think.
