the clear vowels rise like balloons

I wish I wasn’t so dependent on other people’s attention and affection to feel validated, wanted, attractive, etc.

If I don’t get the affection/attention (romantic, sexual or even platonic) that I want or feel like I need, I feel crushed and my self esteem crashes.

I’m needy, basically. I really need to get over it. I just want to be completely emotionally self-sufficient and not need validation from anyone. Pipe dreams.